Early Andropause??

Early andropause ? That's what my friend quoted me .. Choi..大吉利市，i'm still young and pok pok chui.

Working life is suck.Work like a cow day in and out. Stepping in office in the morning, work till 9 plus everyday. For what? cleaning shit for others who doesn't appreciate my hard work.

As mentioned in my previous post, i was given responsibilities to handle most of the task in my department, from a to z..serving clients, customers, reply email, running project, clear back log, phone calls, reports. I'm getting tired with all these endless routine job. It makes me feel like i'm alone, no teamwork at all. Boss always wanted me to put them together, spread positive thinking to my fellow colleagues but too bad,that's really a mission impossible.

There are two seniors in my department, in fact they are the one should carry all my job . In reality, they are the one whom my boss asked me to put more attention to. My GOD, who the hell promote them at the first place? i terus terang told my boss, department will go noway if they never changed.

Sometimes i really hate those '老patpat' who thought they can do whatever they want after serving company for a couples of years. Come ON. Serving long doesn't mean a thing if you are not catching up. Wouldn't be shame if a junior asking u a simple question and yet you do not know the answer?

今晚最night听

并不是彪民的die heart fans 但就蛮喜欢他的节目。不造作，深夜的感人故事尤其感动。
希望阅读后能给我大量的正能量。

好多的文章看是简单但就包含了很多人生大道理，哲学。

“每个遭遇，都是为了让我们活得更好。”

最重要的决定

I believe life is full of decision making, right or wrong, that's part of the journey namely life. 

I've made a decision last two weeks that might change my entire life and yet it's only taken me two minutes to decide. Like it or not, it's too late to regret. . I've submitted my visa application and I'm going to new Zealand. Zero knowledge about the country, not even get a job there. Gosh... But I know you are there to iron out everything for me.

Am i going to resign? How long you will be there? Does your parents agreed on this? Will you coming back to Malaysia after that? Have you think wisely that you might need to start from zero when coming back from nz? So many questions came from my best friend, that's only two ppl that knew it thus far. Honestly, I'm panic. I have no idea what my life going tO be. I will leave all these to god. I'm not a risk taker but it's time to move on from my comfort zone. 

I don't need a luxury life but I'm aiming a simple life that able to support my lovely family financially. I keep on praying hard for giving me ambers of time for my father operation fees, two years follow with another, I know I should not be do greedy. It's about the time .

Koala Bear

This is definitely making my day especially on Monday. Thanks PK.

My dreams

I always wanted to get myself a landed property , be it in KL or Ipoh. That is my dream. I know it's achievable as long as i'm working hard on it.

By looking at my tiny salary and the scale of increment, that's impossible for me to get a terrace house which easily cost about 0.75 million in KL. So i have decided to get myself an apartment with selling price not more than RM350K. By selling out both apartment, existing and the new one, hopefully it's enough to get myself a so called landed property. That's my plan and it needs a lot of sacrifices.

Honestly i do not have much bullet for my second apartment besides down payment. No extra money for renovation . Worse still if no one interested to rent the apartment, if so, i will be in deep shit. Whatever it is, it will not stop me to go further. I willing to take the risk,that's the only way to make my wallet thicker. Pray hard.

祷告

再得知舅母可能患上乳癌的当儿，心情真的佷糟， 不愉快的画面一幕一幕在脑海闪过。想起当初的妈妈，手术后还要接受化疗，化疗后什么都吃不下，不断的呕吐，一天比一天消瘦。心疼舅母可能要面对同样的折磨而感到怜惜。



舅母并不富有，舅舅又失业，没有任何保险的保障，现在又要一笔庞大的手术费 ，可谓雪上加霜。他们以后的生活该怎么办？

希望上帝听到我的祷告，‘愿舅母平安熬过这一劫。孩子们都还小，还需要有个妈妈‘。

忘不了

把电话留在朋友家，原本以为可以叫他送回给我，结果呢！脑袋一片空白。

脑海闪过的并不是爸妈的号码，也不是姐姐的号码，竟然是她的。

一千多个日子，一个很想忘记的号码，竟然还牢牢在脑海里。可悲的还是唯一能记起的号码。

是我可悲还是你的厉害？