失望。再一次

AA的特惠卷土从来但还是失败了。呆在电脑前五个小时还是挤不进。是人太多还是我的互联网太慢？没完没了的问题。

好不容易才鼓起勇气要预定日本的机票，结果呢！ 无论如何，我会再接再厉，目标就是日本的DisneyLand。

以前觉得旅行就该一大班人，才热闹，现在反而觉得无需太勉强，有旅伴固然是好，没有也无所谓。反而一个人也能很精彩，起码我想到哪儿都可以。

安息了，我的学弟

昨天收到学弟最后的一封信，要我偶尔探望伯母。简短的几行字却让我伤心了好久。

学弟因肺炎在上两个星期前刚离开了，太突然了。感叹人生苦短。白头人送黑头人，伯母的心情可想而知。狠毒的我并没有出席学弟的葬礼，怕没办法控制好情绪，当场崩溃。

我答应你，当我安抚心情之后，就会去探望伯母。

Fatherhood

转眼间，易敬已三个月大。长大了，没有以前的调皮但偶而还会吵着抱抱。

抱起易敬总会让我有做爸爸的冲动，但我应该不会是个好爸爸。姐姐每天投诉我给宝宝给宠坏了。以前家境不富裕，很多的东西都得割舍，所以总想给宝宝最好的。

Early Andropause??

Early andropause ? That's what my friend quoted me .. Choi..大吉利市，i'm still young and pok pok chui.

Working life is suck.Work like a cow day in and out. Stepping in office in the morning, work till 9 plus everyday. For what? cleaning shit for others who doesn't appreciate my hard work.

As mentioned in my previous post, i was given responsibilities to handle most of the task in my department, from a to z..serving clients, customers, reply email, running project, clear back log, phone calls, reports. I'm getting tired with all these endless routine job. It makes me feel like i'm alone, no teamwork at all. Boss always wanted me to put them together, spread positive thinking to my fellow colleagues but too bad,that's really a mission impossible.

There are two seniors in my department, in fact they are the one should carry all my job . In reality, they are the one whom my boss asked me to put more attention to. My GOD, who the hell promote them at the first place? i terus terang told my boss, department will go noway if they never changed.

Sometimes i really hate those '老patpat' who thought they can do whatever they want after serving company for a couples of years. Come ON. Serving long doesn't mean a thing if you are not catching up. Wouldn't be shame if a junior asking u a simple question and yet you do not know the answer?

今晚最night听

并不是彪民的die heart fans 但就蛮喜欢他的节目。不造作，深夜的感人故事尤其感动。
希望阅读后能给我大量的正能量。

好多的文章看是简单但就包含了很多人生大道理，哲学。

“每个遭遇，都是为了让我们活得更好。”

最重要的决定

I believe life is full of decision making, right or wrong, that's part of the journey namely life. 

I've made a decision last two weeks that might change my entire life and yet it's only taken me two minutes to decide. Like it or not, it's too late to regret. . I've submitted my visa application and I'm going to new Zealand. Zero knowledge about the country, not even get a job there. Gosh... But I know you are there to iron out everything for me.

Am i going to resign? How long you will be there? Does your parents agreed on this? Will you coming back to Malaysia after that? Have you think wisely that you might need to start from zero when coming back from nz? So many questions came from my best friend, that's only two ppl that knew it thus far. Honestly, I'm panic. I have no idea what my life going tO be. I will leave all these to god. I'm not a risk taker but it's time to move on from my comfort zone. 

I don't need a luxury life but I'm aiming a simple life that able to support my lovely family financially. I keep on praying hard for giving me ambers of time for my father operation fees, two years follow with another, I know I should not be do greedy. It's about the time .

Koala Bear

This is definitely making my day especially on Monday. Thanks PK.