Appraisal 2011

Did my appraisal with my boss and his superior, so called head of branch. Well, doesn’t know her role and contribution well

How would you rate yourself in terms of behavior, contribution, leadership, proactiveness and blab la bla. Without hesitate I’m proudly gave a 8.5 marks as the answer and my boss was agreed on it. Within my expectation , the bitch was not agreed at all. “ I don’t think you are in that rate. Whenever I asked agent about the branch performance, they will said Desa Jaya are good. They did not specifically mentioned whoever staff in that branch, whereas when they asked about Kuching and Pudu branch, they will appoint specific name. From that point of view, I don’t think anyone of you in the branch is outstanding. All equal normal. Geram after listened to that. I questioning back, if agent did not mentioned my name, from where the life sales head got to know I’m perform well and willing to take me to his department? ….. The bitch continued with her bitchy talks with empty content.

Working hard for the company, putting in extra efforts, achieving the high productivity, working on Sunday, getting good feedbacks from agents , customers and bosses. All these only mad me a ‘normal performance’ staff. How to define good and excellent? Who is she to panelized me and pulling back all of y contributions to the branch? She is not in that position. I pray hard she will getting as worse as mine during her appraisal time. I curse her every second. I did, I do.
She openly told me that the 3rd seniors will never exist in the branch and will not have any AM in the branch and hits me to get out of here if I’m not happy with it. Am I sensitive? I’m not sure. Time will prove it. What next?

Promotion, power, that’s not something that I’m aiming for. Money will do. Maybe she is right, I should start to plot my career path but obviously, I don’t think my career will climb any better with her leads. She will just assign whatever tasks that goes to her. That’s why 2 of the managers were resigning. Statistic does prove.

What should I do next? How ? I’m standing in front of the T junction. There are only 3 choices, either turn right or turn left or go further up but definitely no turning back. Turning right for a business, turning left for a better vacancy out there or stay within to see who die first.

GOD always creates question without providing an answer to me especially in this tiny cruel year. Boss said, as a man, we need to bear the responsibility to take care of our beloved. I can understand. Yes, I really do. The more he said, the more disappoint that I’m. He doesn’t know me well. In fact, who does? Jiayou, Haw Sing. Jia you. Must standing firm and confident, fight for yourself, your family, your future wife.